When Life Turns on a Dime

I’ve been saying it for a long time:

“Sometimes, life turns on a dime.”

And now mine has.

One week ago today, I received a diagnosis of breast cancer. It’s so early that I don’t even know yet the severity of it or the course of treatment. More tests are needed and will be taking place over the coming days.

close up, topless woman body covering her breastsI suppose most people react to this kind of news with sadness, fear, and shock, and that is natural and to be expected. However, so far, I have experienced this news as simply the next phase of my journey on the planet. I am a person who is fully engaged with life, overflowing with enthusiasm and joy. Why should this be any different? Because it’s potentially life threatening? Isn’t life in general potentially life threatening every day? Perhaps just a little less in-your-face than cancer. One of the first insights I received after getting the news is that I have absolutely no regrets about my life. How many people can truly say that? I believe that’s part of why I don’t feel afraid.

What I have been most sad about is the fact that my life’s work, my right livelihood, was just starting to take off. An evolution over many years, it was finally emerging fully formed and ready to take on a life of its own. It will now be set aside as I turn my attention to my next healing path. One of my students pointed out to me that my whole life has been about healing. And it’s always been shared with as many people as I can reach in the hopes that they can benefit from it. I can’t imagine this healing journey will be any different. I can  imagine I’ll be doing a lot more writing.

I could not bear to cancel my next Reclaiming Aphrodite workshop in Oakland, CA. It may be my last opportunity to teach in this way for quite some time, if ever. I decided to go ahead with it in a month’s time. I have shortened the month-long trip to California to one week, and will focus solely on the 3-day workshop April 19-21. After that, I’m willing to surrender to whatever the next steps on the healing journey might be. And I trust it will be a potent and powerful journey.

Amrita at Lumeria Cropped

Amrita Grace with protea flowers

I could not possibly be better prepared to take a journey like this, and for that I am infinitely grateful. My beloved, Apollo Grace, is by my side and has been through the breast cancer experience twice already with women in his life (with great outcomes) and I have the strong support of family and friends nearby and far away. My work has reached people around the world, and the support is already pouring in. I live in Maui, a place renowned for its healing energies. Whatever your feelings are, I honor them. All I ask is that you not be in sorrow for me, but to celebrate life with me!

There’s so much more to say, and I’ll be continuing to blog regularly. If you want to get notifications of future posts, please follow my blog. There’s a “follow” button in the upper left corner of this page.  Please comment below as well, if you feel so inclined. You can like and follow my Reclaiming Aphrodite Facebook page as well, or check out my website for free resources for sexual wholeness and empowerment. I would prefer comments to the blog rather than emails… my inbox is pretty overrun right now. Thank you!

I’m so grateful for your presence here. Thank you for being part of my world.

Love & blessings, Amrita

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41 Responses to When Life Turns on a Dime

  1. Lynne Giamario says:

    I believe in the end, this experience will serve to empower you even more, and allow you to help heal others dealing with similar ordeals, in a Chironic way. The good news is that I know you are the type of person who is willing to cooperate/participte with your cycles, and thus will transcend them in due time 🙂

  2. Sue says:

    I feel your spirit as I read your message about life turning on a dime. I feel the Grace. Blessings, Sue

  3. Sweet Amirita:

    Surrounding your with love and prayers as you embark on this journey. Your life IS about healing and apparently this is the next step. Seeing you coming through with flying colors~ When my friend Cindy Greb was diagnosed with breast ca a few years ago, she created The Breast Blog which has been hugely healing for her and others. http://www.thebreastblog.wordpress.com Love, love, love Edie Weinstein

  4. Bella says:

    Holding you in the highest light and violet flame of transmutation!
    Blessings, blessings, blessings !!!

  5. Alana Rae says:

    Oh Amrita, you are so beautiful!!! I wish you the very best as you flow through the next process in your journey 🙂

    Love, hugs and kisses,
    Alana Rae

  6. Amrita, wishing you peace of mind and complete health with grace and ease. BTW, have you used PSYCH-K? Since we took the class together, it came to mind as a resource for healing. Also, would be happy to make you a positive programming CD. Meanwhile, sending love and light.

  7. jade says:

    Sending you our (Keith and my) love and well wishes! Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. Loving you always!

  8. Keith Kramer says:

    We in Utah are pulling for you. We’re sending Love and support for your healing.

  9. Sun Goddess says:

    It’s a powerful day of metamorphosis for me, then I came across your piece and read on to discover. Please do not own, nor claim what has been diagnosed in a one of the medical world’s descriptive term of imbalance which calls more to itself – breast cancer. The breast is symbolic of self-care and represents mothering and nurturing and nourishment. It’s time to take in and give out nourishment in perfect balance. Clearly you’ve been giving, giving for whatever reason and neglecting yourself. I know this personally. I’ve been through the attempts to tell me what was told to you, but I walked out of there and never returned, leaving folks angry and blowing up my phone to get me to go back in. I ignored them and listened to my body and the divine infinite intelligence I carry. I knew what I needed to do. Within 2 weeks the pain, the imbalance in my breasts were clear, gone. My breasts happy, full and plum and the rest of me aligned. Still are today as I continue to excavate my authentic self and not try to be like others. Goddess blessings to you Amrita. This is your path, this is your calling…. now put the magic in motion. 🙂

  10. Tanja Kala says:

    Aloha Amrita,
    The way I see it, there are so many possibilities for healing! I will share a few here and you can see which ones you might want to check out. First, I went to a intro last night at TOP and this lady, Illania, has this machine that scans your voice for Genetic Blueprint Patterns, then removes those programs out of your brain, by releasing the synapse from their fixed position. My mother, an energy worker who died of ovarian cancer in 2010, was researching the patterns held in the brain from our past experiences and ancestral miasms at the time of her death. She was on to something… This technology that was presented last night is what, I believe, she was moving towards. Illania’s number is 404-808-8150. She is on Maui for 2 weeks to do sessions, and then goes back to Georgia. The second is Zeolite Powder. The one I use is from HealthForce Naturals. It is an amazing product that removes heavy metals, bacteria, and ‘other’ things out of the body. The third is from right here in Hawaii: NONI. Fermented NONI reduces, if not completely eliminates, cysts in the body. A great website for support in natural treatment research is the CureZone.com. Hope all this gives you food for thought! I will miss doing the couples workshop with you two here on Maui. Be Well, Tanja

  11. Kym says:

    Can we embrace brokenness as an integral part of wholeness?
    “There is a brokenness out of which comes the unbroken, a shatteredness out of which blooms the unshatterable. There is a sorrow beyond grief which leads to joy and a fragility out of whose depths emerges strength. There is a hollow space too vast for words through which we pass with each loss, out of whose darkness we are sanctioned into being. There is a cry deeper than all sound whose serrated edges cut the heart as we break open to the place inside which is unbreakable and whole, while learning to sing.”
    -Rashani
    With deep love and gratitude for ALL that you are. Kym Perth Australia

  12. Thinking of you, and seeing you surrounded in comforting love, great courage, and deep peace.

  13. David says:

    Amrite, always the realist…i must say you have some difficult decisions before you. Some that might fly in the face of a holistic approach! Be aware i just watched Whitestar and my friend rob fight cancer and win. Even in those words, fight is key. Its the western mentality! What i ask, from my love for you is that you not discount or avoid modern chemo and radiation therapy if its mandated! ( hopefully yours is not advanced as i know your super aware of your body and probably caught it early! ), but as the days unfold, if it is otherwise…know chemo and radiation work! Both my friends are healthy, well, and back to living full productive lifes.

    I know you have these decisions to make. Please accept this one input as pro western medicine. It is brutal, no fun, but the best science has to offer. Not all medicine is good, but combined with your spiritual strength, it can be a powerful ally in the days to come. I advocate a kick ass, go away and dont come back treatment. Steve Jobs did not.,. He tried to avoid treatment by western medicine ( did you know he named it Apple because he was vegan, raw food, way before irts time!). Some western medicine, tempered with your spiritual strength seems a good approach. But again, this is just my IMHO comment!

    I remain forever one of your powerful advocates, in love, in care, in reality based thinking. While often full of folly (and play!) I have only the best love and support in my heart for you. Leni too sends her love and prayers. From Bali, david

    • Amrita Grace says:

      David, I am a practical woman. I am considering all possibilities. I am very strong, fit, and robust, and have a great immune system. I know that I will choose life, all the way, even if that means radiation and/or chemo. I had a great conversation yesterday with a friend who had immense success with minimal impact going Western medicine all the way, including Tamoxifin for life (10 years cancer free). I’ve also heard a survivor story on the other end of the spectrum, minimal Western medicine. I will choose what’s right for me once the options are all clear. I’m also a fierce warrior. I love my life and intend to keep it for a long time to come. Thanks for your input, my friend.

  14. Margie says:

    Just want you to know that Nathan and I send loving thoughts and prayers, knowing your strong, fit and robust. I totally trust that your path to healing — physically, emotionally and spiritually — wisely reveals itself and guides you lovingly. We’ll keep posted. xo

  15. Kara Hagen says:

    Amrita,
    That beautiful stillness inside of you will guide and support you, love, nurture and empower you on your journey. Rest in the calm within the storm and know you are protected. So much love and light~Kara

  16. Beloved Neighbors, Amrita & Apollo~ This is a joyous blog post as you so clearly embody the peace & power that heals and it is always inspiring and uplifting to hear of the warrior Spirit of Love triumphing over cells who have transmuted one way when they realize who they really are: vibrant, healthy cells of Love pulsating with the beauty of our nature. I am here, Amrita. Please call on me if I can be of service in your healing and celebration of what is. I am very happy to know you, to grow with you, and to share that my Godmother has deep ties to holistic healing of such a nature and has healed herself twice–completely!

    Aloha, Love, Peace & Blessings,
    Claire PS: I will call you into my prayers for Core Regeneration & Illumination.

  17. Suzan Steinberg says:

    Dear Amrita, in 1985 I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer.Raising small children and being the most loving wife to my wonderful husband,I too walked the path of the unknown. You are so blessed with the knowledge of our time.You will be fine and healthy. We will be thinking of you always. Suzan and Lee Steinberg

  18. Athena Grace says:

    Holy Amrita!!!
    Your words illuminated DEEP WISDOM within me.
    Thank you…
    I am amazing graced by your wide open heart grounded in the eternal.
    Thanks for standing up and speaking Truth, Brave Beautiful Sister.
    Amen.
    I LOVE YOU FOREVER!
    ~*~
    Athena

    • Amrita Grace says:

      I am so blessed by your words, Athena of my Heart! I can’t wait to see you and immerse deeply with you… truly a dream coming true. I LOVE YOU FOREVER!! xo

  19. Diane says:

    Dear Amrita,

    You are not alone – I, too, had breast cancer, and was diagnosed four years ago. Thankfully, I sailed through surgery and treatment, and am doing great. You will too.

    Curiously, when I first got diagnosed, my reaction was “yes!” Now, I thought, where did THAT come from? Well, now I know because my cancer diagnosis brought me to even higher and deeper levels of spiritual growth in areas I would not have explored had this diagnosis not occurred. A part of me knew where I was heading and it was glad.

    I wish you well, Amrita, and I wish you an amazing journey of greater healing and deeper spiritual discovery. I only met you once when you held a wonderful meeting in my town a couple years ago. But as soon as I read this tonight, I felt the connection and knew that you, too, would experience something much greater and Divine.

    Much love to you.

    • Amrita Grace says:

      Hi Diane, thank so much for your comments. Interestingly enough, I had a similar reaction when I was diagnosed. Apollo and I looked at each other and said, great, we needed a channel change! It’s not something I talk about much because it’s hard for people to understand. I appreciate your perspective, though, because I know this journey is for my highest good and I have very little resistance to it. I’m in for the adventure, and willing to travel the underworld paths when they are before me. I appreciate the connection to you. Love & blessings, Amrita

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