I’ve been saying it for a long time:
“Sometimes, life turns on a dime.”
And now mine has.
One week ago today, I received a diagnosis of breast cancer. It’s so early that I don’t even know yet the severity of it or the course of treatment. More tests are needed and will be taking place over the coming days.
I suppose most people react to this kind of news with sadness, fear, and shock, and that is natural and to be expected. However, so far, I have experienced this news as simply the next phase of my journey on the planet. I am a person who is fully engaged with life, overflowing with enthusiasm and joy. Why should this be any different? Because it’s potentially life threatening? Isn’t life in general potentially life threatening every day? Perhaps just a little less in-your-face than cancer. One of the first insights I received after getting the news is that I have absolutely no regrets about my life. How many people can truly say that? I believe that’s part of why I don’t feel afraid.
What I have been most sad about is the fact that my life’s work, my right livelihood, was just starting to take off. An evolution over many years, it was finally emerging fully formed and ready to take on a life of its own. It will now be set aside as I turn my attention to my next healing path. One of my students pointed out to me that my whole life has been about healing. And it’s always been shared with as many people as I can reach in the hopes that they can benefit from it. I can’t imagine this healing journey will be any different. I can imagine I’ll be doing a lot more writing.
I could not bear to cancel my next Reclaiming Aphrodite workshop in Oakland, CA. It may be my last opportunity to teach in this way for quite some time, if ever. I decided to go ahead with it in a month’s time. I have shortened the month-long trip to California to one week, and will focus solely on the 3-day workshop April 19-21. After that, I’m willing to surrender to whatever the next steps on the healing journey might be. And I trust it will be a potent and powerful journey.
I could not possibly be better prepared to take a journey like this, and for that I am infinitely grateful. My beloved, Apollo Grace, is by my side and has been through the breast cancer experience twice already with women in his life (with great outcomes) and I have the strong support of family and friends nearby and far away. My work has reached people around the world, and the support is already pouring in. I live in Maui, a place renowned for its healing energies. Whatever your feelings are, I honor them. All I ask is that you not be in sorrow for me, but to celebrate life with me!
There’s so much more to say, and I’ll be continuing to blog regularly. If you want to get notifications of future posts, please follow my blog. There’s a “follow” button in the upper left corner of this page. Please comment below as well, if you feel so inclined. You can like and follow my Reclaiming Aphrodite Facebook page as well, or check out my website for free resources for sexual wholeness and empowerment. I would prefer comments to the blog rather than emails… my inbox is pretty overrun right now. Thank you!
I’m so grateful for your presence here. Thank you for being part of my world.
Love & blessings, Amrita